31/12/2005

Today is the last day of 2005.
Still left ard 4 hr and 30 mins to the new start of 2006.
Well... do your sometimes start to think how was my 2005 like? Every year on the last day I would always think how was my life like for these whole year. Did alot of things happened this year? Do your think like that too? Or was it just me? Anyway this year had alot of ups & downs, knew my Thyroid illness in Apr,had a short trip to Genting in May & change jobs in Oct, well these 3 events is the only thing i can remember, of coz there are still alot of things happening, but my poor memory starts to work again...^_^)
Why am I here writing blog today where I should go and party myself to the dawn? Well...thats bcoz I really hate to go crowd with others, even last week, Christmas countdown, I juz spend the time with my cousins go movie and chit chat at kopitiam and of coz avoiding city area...Jenny ask me out for coffee with Lin but I reject, coz I was not feeling well, I spend my afternoon napping, gosh... I slept from 1pm to 6pm, frankly speaking I never slept so long for my nap, mostly give me 3 hrs for nap is very standard but I don't know why this time round I slept for so long and I didn't even take medicine, guess I'm really too tired...
New Year Resolution?
No I never had new year resolutions coz I never stick to that, I just live by each day. Able to sleep, eat, smile, laugh & be in love will be enough for me. Hmm..add 1 more will be good health, hopefully 2006 I can stop my medicine for Thyroid. Bless me!!!
For my Dear Friends~~~
HAPPY NEW YEAR & WISHING EACH OF YOU BE HAPPY & HEALTHY ALWAYS. LOVE U!!!

13/12/05

hm... very long never update my blog liao hor... haiz...very lazy and no mood to write also...anyway every weekday is the same, work come home watch tv/vcd or online. recently have been going out every sat, kind of tired... spend alot of time with my family too coz my uncle came back for almost a month before flying back this fri, so we might meet the last time round with him tmr and watch King Kong before he fly back to Shanghai, guess he won't be back for Chinese New Year next mth.
I wana complain... have been waiting for the Korean mag to arrive in Sg, waiting for almost 2 mth liao leh... wat happen??? Do something man... I wana get SHINHWA.... argh...juz hate the pain of waiting. buck up pls... oh yah...recently Sungie got admitted to hospital[heart pain] ah... my poor baby... take good care dun tired yrself out...
hm... i actually felt like changing jobs leh... or feel like changing to other department, have been feeling very lonely at work... dun even have a close friend and up till now almost working for 2 mths, nobody have my hp no except my Chief and vice versa, i dun know why i really dun have much things to talk to them, so everyday i hope & pray that time pass by faster so i can get out of the office faster. well... my aunt told me is bcoz i'm still new over there mah, but its almost 2 mths man... and alot of things i really very blur lor... haiz... kind of feel like there doesn't suit me leh... i don't know lah... i'm quite stress up working there...well...i give myself another few more months...bless me. Chief coming back tmr, sure nag alot...hahaha...sure busy tmr... haiz... all right, until my next entry.... Oyasuminasai... sweet dreamz...

happy birthday my love

My : Sungie

~~~Happy Birthday to you~~~

Yesterday my family day came out ok, went to pray my grandpa in the afternoon and catch Harry Porter after that, the movie was great, and the guy who died is so gorgeous, haha...and yeah..i saw E R I C samsung commercial again.. ^0^ happy... after that went amk for steamboat and ktv afterwards... enjoyed ourself at the ktv, the room was big coz we got 15 people...we sang, danced and laughed so happily, kind of forgot the unhappiness earlier...i just love family gathering even though it is a torture to organize it.

ARGH...today mood just sucks...everything just seem not right +_+ esp my family day tmr is driving me crazy, everyone kept asking me meet what time, meet where, go where. WTF, yr never suggest go where then kept asking me how... ask your wana go where for dinner also kept saying anything... ARGH... so damn piss off and practically today talk to my family in a very bad tone... what i can say is i really very fed up lor... in the end finally managed to come out with a time to meet at my aunt house then after that think of where to go for dinner... already tired with my work still got to make me do this stuff... so tired now...anyway mon went to attend my ex colleague's ROM..hm.. I was thinking sometimes things really is fated lor... duno how to say lah, anyway Congrats...very tired now... juz now went for dinner with xuan... talk to her abt my work & my family day tmr... really very tiring today... ZZzzz....night sweetie

Ah... I am really very lazy to blog these few days. even though i spent alot of time at home recently... just pure lazy. haha. anyway nothing much in particular happening, went to Parkway to return my uniform today, went makan my favourite char kway teow with Land and did some shopping...hehe.. i'm really broke man... oh yah fri i finally bought a korean drama which i waited for it to arrive in Sg for few months liao and i was so damn happy and i finish the show on sat noght..haha.. quite ok but not as nice as i expected maybe bcoz i have read each single episode online already so i roughly knew what they going to show next so the excitement is not there already. hm.. but the both guys inside the show is damn gorgeous...^0^
Feee... i like the testi u wrote for me...hehe.. thanks... take good care my dear...
ok got to go meet my prince charming in my dreamland. oyasumi...

written by Feee in my friendster...

+My Dearest Senior+

She's a kind and considerate person.Always thought me to be patient and not rush things. I look for her when I had something on mind,and in return,she gave me advices.
She's the kind of person,you would want to bring home with you. U know,like a genie in a bottle. U rub2,and he/she comes out. Yah.Like that.(haha)
I would go anywhere in a jiffy just to see her.Even if it takes flying a jetplane. U can always talk crappy things,cos it made her laugh sometimes. Ya still remember patrick? Hoho.She's never been serious,and yah,the only thing she ever complained about was the air con thingy at home. Haha. And if the korea vcd not yet released. Haha.
But Im glad I wasted a year of schooling just to work,cos if not,I wouldn't have met great people like her. She changed my life for the better,and I'll always remember the advices you gave me.

And yah,through her,I am definetely influenced by the Korean craze.
But ahh..not Eric or HS.Hee..

Take care! Muaaax.=)))

my dears

My Dears...
If you want to know how much I miss you, go count the raindrops when it rain... the ones u catch will mean how much you miss me...
but the ones you missed out, will mean how much I miss you...

Yesterday went to watch 40 yr old virgin with Xuan, nice show, it was hilarious and kind of sweet. high reco... =) wake up today damn early coz got to prepare a war in the morning, won't go on details... so wake up around 8am, ah... now kind of get used waking up early i guess... so before war, got up and do my laundry first coz later going to meet my mum out jalan jalan... OH YEAH... before i forgot... u know what yesterday while i was in the cinema at PS, before the show start always got alot of commercial right? guess what commercial i saw??? its E R I C samsung commercial... OH GOSH... I was like couldn't believe my eyes that his commercial was shown over in SG, though quite short but i was so damn happy xia... hehe... just make my day...when can i see HS one??? haha.. well possibility is 0 i guess coz the commercial he endorse isn't available in SG +_+ oh yah... yesterday we watch the show hor, we were sitting on the first row leh... wah piang so sellable... anyway we still catch the show lor coz theres no other show i want to watch liao... lucky it turn out nice if not my neck is the one that suffer the most...haha. today got shopping mood leh coz took my pay liao..hehe... hopefully can buy some clothes... really nothing to wear like that leh and wearing heels to work is really a torture coz i always got to climb slope.... so painful...
Yesterday went Orchard then go find my darling, so miss everyone... met Ria also, she is leaving soon, glad for her that she had found a better job. My poor Land... poor little gal... take good care ok.. don't tire yourself out...

Land & Fee

Dear Jus|and

"Life is too short to be anything but happy. Love deeply, forgive quickly, take chances, give everything with no regrets. Forget the past with the exception of what you have learned and remember -- everything happens for a reason."

Dear Fee

"For a long time is seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life.
But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first,
some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid.
At last it dawned on me that these obstacle were my life.
This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness.
Happiness is the way.
So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
Dance as though no one is watching you.
Love as though you have never been hurt before.
Sing as though no one can hear you.
Live as though heaven is on earth."

summary

Hmm...what should i write today? maybe a summary of what happen this week.
Monday, first day of work, so scared, worried and lonely. colleagues is quite nice but i felt so left out coz don't even know what they talking about or who they talking about so I just do my work. Like that continuously for 5 days, I'm still so quiet coz I don't have same topic to talk to them except for work stuffs, the only person I can talk more is with my Chief Clerk, she is a mum of 2 kids, she got the same interest as me that is Korean drama, haha. coz i can't log in my pc to access to the program so practically morning i will be on her desk to do my work so sometimes we will be talking about Kdrama, but the funny thing is our taste of show is very different lor, alot of show I find not nice she say nice then I say nice she say not nice, funny right? but we still have the same liking on certain show lah, haha. sometimes I felt lonely inside the office leh, coz is like I really don't know what to say to them except for work stuffs lor, even my colleagues say I'm very quiet and sometimes I didn't even go lunch together with them, I just buy back to eat in the office, coz sometimes I go makan with them I also very quiet so I rather just buy back and eat in the office. so xian right? I miss my darlings ex-colleagues.... miss everything about them, miss the craps, FOS etc... I always reach home around 6.30pm and when I reach home I felt so lonely leh, coz is like I don't know what I should do, coz sometimes tv show not nice then when i log on to the pc nobody is online so early, then now I got to sleep early because I got to wake up at 6am . Sat & Sun also seems very boring, no $ to go out and so boring to stay at home. luckily yest I met up with my mum and aunt pauline for dinner at ang mo kio central and they accompany me do some shopping, bought a pair of shoe, 1 top and 1 pant. If I never meet them up, I guess I will bored to death, I'm so used to spending my weekends at work and now when I got the free time, I felt so damn xian xia... and I just wanted to meet someone up regardless of family or friends. Well maybe jus|and is right, I should go get a bf right? but what the heck, think so easy meh, macham they will fall from sky like that. LOL. back to work tomorrow, so feel like crying...

I'M SO

photos

Sam & Sena ( My Dear is so pretty...)


Sena & me in JB Skudai


Mr & Mrs Saravanan

TIRED

AH... first day of work... I'm so tired... alot to learn leh very blur...somemore so many password to remember. WTF man... actually didn't do much work today, went through the leave system but don't understand a thing...WAHAHA... but colleagues & Chief Secretary quite good. Chief took half day leave so I only did abit of paperwork coz my card got problems can't log into the PC...haiz..so damn troublesome. Reach home around 6.30pm, still quite early coz I actually took the chartered bus, now got to take the chartered bus liao if not if I take public transport it would cost me a bomb and it would take ages before I reach my workplace coz damn Ulu. haha. Aunties inside the chartered bus very nice, told me where the pickup place and drop off place. Ah... whole day reading that stupid file makes me damn sleepy xia... I miss my Dears... Are they missing me too???

HAPPY

so happy today. why??? finally got my Hye Sung cd. yeah yeah~~~ Janice got it for me in Korea. hehe. Muacks...and the most happy thing is she bought the special edition one... WOW... coz the special edition got extra vcd and more photo. hehe. so HAPPY~~~~finally after 2 months of waiting, i got his cd.
So scare of my new job tomorrow, hope everything goes well. (pray hard)
AJAH AJAH FIGHTING~~~~

Ending

Now is 16 Oct Sun 1.35am. Just reach home about an hour ago, yesterday was my last day of work in Nike Women. Knock off at 4.30pm then rush to Orchard pass the shop key to my Manager, after that went home and put my things then went back to Parkway again, meet my colleagues for supper. Thought only the 5 (me, Land, Fee, Jannah & Shera) of us going only but luckily Sena & Siti was here too. So we went makan at Haig road there. Makan and took some photo, will upload it once I develop it. Received some presents and cards from my colleagues, so sweet of them. I love it. Surprisingly I didn't cry leh, suddenly felt like so strong like that but actually when I reach home, I cried for awhile. I don't know why I just feel like I haven't left the company yet leh. Gosh...what is happening to me??? Imagine I'm still not prepared for the new job which is tomorrow? ARGH... how? I'm so scare... Well... over the past one year and eight months over here, I felt I change alot, guess everybody got to grow up right? I'm so blessed that I have met such wonderful colleagues here, sincerely i wish to say to all my colleagues, they are always with me through ups and downs. greatly and deeply appreciate it. They can always make me smile and let me forget my worries. We will always be FRIENDS till the END. Loving them always~~~~

Went Polyclinic to take my medicine today, after that went Outram buy cd then meet Serene, Nana, Siyun & Vic for dinner @ Punggol Park, so long never meet them liao, good to meet up with old friends and talk about all of us and gossiping of others. hehe. They wanted to organize a short trip to Bintan next month, hm... so broke how to go??? Whatever... I told Serene I very stress on the new job then she said she already prepare for the first week sure will receive my phone call, hehe. What Friends are for right?
Countdown to 2 more days. So damn sad xia...

Anyway I want to put Sungie photo. so long never upload his photo liao. hehe ^0^



Nice?? I like the one in blue, so cute & hot. got to cool myself down.

ROM

5.45pm is the time ROM ceremony should start but guess what time Sena reach? 7.10pm. Oh gosh... she was stuck at Tuas there. So we actually have the ROM ceremony change to outdoor instead of indoor. After the ceremony, James go off first coz he got to meet his friend so I was left alone. After the ROM we went makan at Little India - Banana Leaf restaurant. Sena ask me to take the car instead of bus so her brother drives us there, I was so damn paisei coz our car actually got ribbons on the car and I was the only chinese inside the car ( got 4 people inside the car, me Sena's brother, cousin & 1 aunt) and I put the bouquet of flowers on my lap so that the aunt can sit, so when we were driving to our destination, alot of people inside bus, inside car was like staring at me which makes me so embarass, the cousin also notice that and said: "wait people thought you marrying an Indian". WAHAHA so damn funny. Dinner was quite nice but I felt so left out even though the cousin was like talking to me but mostly they were communicating in Indian so don't understand a thing. Anyway manage to take few pics ^0^
Back to work tomorrow, seems like alot of things to do xia...xianz...
Buen Camino.

Just came back not long from Sena's engagement party at JB, tired xia... reach her boyfriend's home at CCK ard 4.40pm, bus left at around 5.10pm, reach her engagement place around 7.30pm, so damn long right? coz we kept waiting & waiting. nearly sleep inside the bus xia. haha, anyway the ceremony started around 8pm and last around 1 hour, so dinner practically start at 9pm, oh gosh... I whole day never eay anything xia...haha. Sena is really very beautiful today but she look nervous and tired. Her costume today is red with lots and lots of gold, Sam's finger all with gold rings xia, no kidding man..haha. After the ceremony then I got the chance to talk to Sena and took some photos, she very cute say her smile like very fake coz smile too much liao. will upload the photo once its ready. ^0^ reach Sinagpore custom around 11.45pm, manage to take the last train from CCK and drop off at Ang Mo Kio then take cab home, oh gosh... I'm so dead tired. Today still got to go to her ROM. Ah... just now take photo that time I very cheeky, I turn to the both of them and said I want to take a photo of both of your kissing. WAHAHAHA... they so paisei and Sena was like you come my wedding next year then take then Sam was like cannot lah, too many people liao. wahahaha. they are such cute couple leh. Wishing them an Everlasting Love!!!
As what I have written on the card for Sena~ I'm really happy that you have found your soul mate, someone you can hold hands till old, be a healthy and loving nanny. Love you lots my Darling~~

Teary...

Felt like having a good cry now. So many things on my mind and I'm so damn tired. Received stocks today and was busy like hell the whole day, actually work til 7pm but I left around 8.45pm. Late afternoon met a regular customer, she bought some app and we was like talking about the discount thing then she said she actually have discount card for another company but she bought from us for nett price then I ask her why she never went there? guess what was her reply? She said I like your service mah, ARGH... I was so touched. so I tell her today might be the last time I'm serving her coz I'm leaving and she look kind of sad... then ask me about my new job etc. then she ask me how's the pay all these so I just say the new job got higher pay lor, so she ask me back, is the high pay very important? so I just told her coz its office and I got to work only 5 days a week mah and here is 6 days lor, so she kind of understand then we ended saying take care, so sweet of her right? Managed to meet Jo, my regular customer, luckily when she came I was still around, she came around 8.30pm so managed to pass her the small gift personally to her and she look abit shock, haha. She was also like.. "you really leaving ah...." AH... just makes me go so sad hearing all these. Received a card by my Wisma colleague, Lena, Fanice & Jaslyn. so sweet of them. Love it.


Fee~ I'm so glad that finally you understand why I like HS & Eric so much.
they are such cute patricks right? haha.

BTW, when I was waiting for my bus to go home, I actually drop few droplets of tears. AH... so sad...

My off day again today, had a good sleep yesterday, guess I'm really tired coz recently haven't been sleeping well. Anyway, woke up in the afternoon, go Polyclinic take my blood test, I really pissed off with the nurse leh... she took my blood already then put it in the wrong tube then no choice got to take my blood again, Nao Hia man... I think she is the same gal that took my blood test last month then left me a bruise for around 1 week coz i think she poke the wrong place, WTF man. ARGH... hopefully next time is not her again... just my luck xia. After that went Bugis Guanyin temple pray pray, then go bugis check out any vcd and magazine, anyway its not my day today so didn't bought anything, good also lah, got to save $ leh, broke xia. came back did my laundry and watch tv. excited over sunday Sena's engagement and monday her ROM, ah... what to wear??? hm... anyway recently i manage to slim down abit then some of the old clothes I got can wear again..hehe so happy.
Still left with 9 days to 15 Oct. 6 working days left. Time just pass by so fast man, today wake up and was lazing on my bed then think of how many days left over here then I felt the urge to cry leh but I quickly divert my attention and get up to bath. Few days ago met 1 regular customer then I told her I'm leaving and she told me to take care, yesterday called up my VIP customer Jo regarding abt the new stock then I also told her my last day on the 15th then most probably she will pop by tomorrow, I have prepare a small gift for her, hopefully can meet her tomorrow.

A friend is someone who walks in when the whole world has walked out.

I have been having sleeping disorder these few days, I manage to sleep around 2-3am but wake up at ard 6am then I can't get back to sleep already, don't know what happen to me? Maybe I'm stress up coz of the new job got to wake up very early liao. Anyway now is 3am I still haven't sleep, Well... yest (3/10) was my off day, for these 2 weeks I will be working 2 days off 1 day coz I'm clearing my replacement off, so did some shopping, bought 1 shoe, 1 top & 1 skirt, can't manage to get the pants I want, out of stock... met Janice for awhile, take discount card from her then went Wisma pass the gals the card I made then went NAC lunch with my Darling Sena, reach home around 6pm. Juz now finally finish my card for other colleagues, so tired... then pack my room again, clear alot of things... my room is now halfway through to finish...hehe, enjoy packing randomly...hopefully later I can have a good sleep throughout.
Looking forward to Sena's engagement this Sun and ROM on Mon...hope she like the present I gave her...Oh gosh... I don't know what to wear leh.
I'm tired, got to catch up my sleep. Oyasumi.

Today Billy called me from Brunei. surprised that he called me and glad that he is all right, coz he told me some of his friends got injured while training. Luckily he's fine. Hopefully can catch up with him before I start my new work, very long never meet him up liao...

sick

today wake up at 4pm. Oh gosh... I'm today... these few days having fever & since yesterday started having migrain again... so today. juz feel like sleeping the whole day. Anyway these few days have been packing my things, my vcd lah, my clothings lah & doing laundry, still got alot of things to clear, me being very sentimental tends to keep alot of things so now its really time to clear all unwanted things. next month got more time to clear my things since I got my replacement off to clear before I go, so now I'm packing my things bits by bits. met my Mum juz now, she borrowed Korean drama from me, oh gosh.. she's so cute leh. Anyway recently there's no nice show to watch so spent alot of time doing my own stuffs and d/l Shinhwa video ^0^ hehe. oh gosh... migrain is back again... shit...now count down to my pay day, got to buy office clothes liao, shit goanna be broke...very broke... and the f thing... my discman spoilt, WTF man...
Hm... feel like eating & leh... keke.
today sleep for so long, hopefully can get to sleep later, I think can sleep lah coz I just now took milk liao, milk is really good for me, if I drink milk that day, sure sleep very well, so all those who is having sleepless night, try drinking milk, it helps.
Sweet dreamz & sleep tight, my CHINGU.

17 Days to go

I'm only left with 17 more days before leaving this company. Oh gosh..its too fast liao. And it seems like I haven't got any intention to leave yet. Anyway maybe when its near Oct 15(my last day) then I will finally realize that it's time for me to embark on a new journey. I'm scared coz I find the new journey route cold, dark and lonely. I'm really hoping that there will be warmth & lights shone over me real soon.
Dongli is so sweet, previously he called me and I've told him about my new job andtoday he called me up again telling me which bus to go to my new workplace, even though I don't know izit the correct place but its this gesture that makes me feel so happy. You know, its the thoughts that counts.
Eric told me that Jeannie told him that if I would like to come back to this job, I'm always welcome. But I tell myself I shouldn't be thinking this way coz if I really think that if I cannot stand the new job, I would sure got this thinking, "Never mind lah, quit, quit lor I still can go back to my old job" I really cannot afford to have this thinking if not I cannot succeed in everything I do. Don't you think so? I really have to think far from now. All right my Dears. Wish me luck, happiness& success. Buen Camino. Sweet dreamz. Sleep tight.

By Jus|and:

We're like sisters & best of frds. We can do anything or nothing & still have the best of time. Just bcos I enjoy her company. We share secrets, laughter & just have fun. We don't judge each other & accept exactly the way we're. I look at her & see a great person. One I love spending time with. We all share something in common & are tied together by memories, tears, laughs, smiles & by love for the other. Frdship is the strangest but GREATEST thing in the world.

As we walk our path of life, we meet pple everyday. Most are simply met by chance. But some are sent our way. These become special frds whose bond we can't explain. I know tat some frds just come & go. But not sotong gal. We're frds to the core. Our frdship was meant to be frm the first time we met. Frds at first sight. So gal.... whenever u feel down or when u miss my FOS, u can always find me. Te quiero

By Fee:

I am so going to miss talking tua kee(lol. U get what i mean ryte..?)with you, sharing those Korean dramas and drooling over Yan Taos. The Char Kway Teow we both loved. Kaya Toasts. Hais. We all, I mean ALL of us are going to miss you badly. You've thought me alot during these past two months working with you, and I really hope, we will share a long friendship over the coming years. It's going to be hard, building and making new friends, but trust me, you will always know the right path. Have faith. Dun forget to miss me, okay????????


For being there when I need you and standing beside me...
For listening without judging, and knowing without asking...
For keeping even the tiniest secrets safe...
For making me laugh, encouraging my dreams, and loving me as I am...
and most of all for being you...
THANK YOU my wonderful supportive FRIEND!!!

I'm sad... coz can't go company's D&D. Hope my Dears can enjoy themselves.

One year eight months

One year eight months. Next month will be exactly 1 yr 8 mths ever since i started working this company, during these times, i met very wonderful colleagues, friends & customers of coz not forgeting some irritating colleagues cum customers, but i have to agree the happy times spent here is really unforgetable and happy and really i think i won't be able to meet so nice colleagues ever already. Actually abit couldn't break the news to my manager but end up he didn't f me, he's glad that i have found a better job so that makes me happy. Ah... don't know can attend the D&D or not... i really wish to go leh... =.(
I really couldn't bear to leave my Dear colleagues leh, have to pray that my last day here i wouldn't flood the shop. Will gonna miss them like hell. Thinking back the times spent here, individual moments with each of them will send tears bluring my vision.
Land, Sena, Siti, Fee, Juita, Fanice, Lena, Reia, Jaslyn, Sharifah, Shera, James, Eric & Stephanine.
Each of them played a very important part for me, i knew i have learnt a lot from them.
Thanks for all the memories, i will surely think of your alot on my new job, hope that makes me going, your will be the strength for me when i'm on the new job.
Friends Forever ^0^

Finally... the long awaited call came ringing today... Wow.. i was already like nearly forgot this whole thing then they call me. Army called me up today say my thing is already in process already, ask me when i can go down to sign the contract. Oh gosh... i already plan my things nice nice already then they call me, WTF man... Anyway i nearly spoil the whole thing but luckily manage to save the situation. I'm going down today (14/9) to sign the thing then i hope they could let me start work on the 1st Nov so that i can at least attend my Company's D&D next month... I really wish to attend the D&D with my dear colleagues and it will be the last gathering liao, so i really hope i can go. I'm very scared and confused actually coz i really don't know whether i'm doing the right thing. Let's hope everything goes smooth & well.
AH... so tired today... wake up so early today, tmr also got to wake up so early. got to sleep earlier later. will update again on how's the contract thing, got to go polish my nails...hehe. Buen Camino.

"It's funny, you work so hard, you do everything you can to get away from a place, and when you finally get your chance to leave, you find a reason to stay."

“I used to be afraid of so many things... That I'd never grow up. That I'd be trapped in the same place for all eternity. That my dreams would forever be shy of my reach. It's true what they say. Time plays tricks on you. One day you're dreaming, the next your dream has become your reality. And now that this scared little girl no longer follows me wherever I go, I miss her. I do. 'Cause there are things I wanna tell her-- to relax, to lighten up, that it is all going to be ok.. The people who contributed to who I am, they are with me wherever I go, and as history gets rewritten in small ways with each passing day, my love for them only grows. Because the truth is... it was the best of times. Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned, but all of that has receded into fond memory now. How does it happen? Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it's because we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we will never forget. I can't swear this is exactly how it happened. But this is how it felt."

Few days ago, I was on the phone talking to 1 of my colleague at work, first time talk to her for so long, we didn't really know each other well though, only sometimes joke over the phone. Surprisingly she told me some hidden secrests. haha. Anyway after the talk with her makes me realize something. Hmmm... that is....
I really love my colleagues a lot. haha. I often tell my friends, the only reason that made me stay in this job is not the pay, is not the work but... the colleagues. I don't think ever in my working life will there be any colleagues like them. Anyway I'm glad in a way that the Army haven't reply to my final application, so that I can stay here longer. I really can't imagine the day if I were to leave them. I would sure be very lost.
Today went to office with Fanice, she told me she and her boyfriend is saving $ to get married. Ah... so good. I'm so glad that my Darling Sena is getting engeged next month and Fanice is starting to plan her marriage. Ah.. so envious. It's just so good to have someone by your side and having the same thought of marriage. For my opinion, when the guy really thought of marriage, that means he really love the girl and will want to be by her side forever, don't you think its romantic?
Ah... how I wish someone would propose to me now...hahaha...and of coz not bad looking guy la...wahahaha. My ideal marriage age is around 26-28, will I be able to fulfil this dream? (praying hard)
Many loves to my Darling colleagues & friends.... night

I'm . Need a shoulder to lean on....

Sungie's letter

May 7th 2005... I remember the day I stood in front of the fans for the first time with the solo album..
That day that I was so nervous and shaking I dont even know how it went by
but I can remember all your faces that went through it together with me..
Its already been 3 months since I've begun solo activities.
At first it was so hard because of the fear of being alone and the pressure.... but remembering all your pretty faces, your smiles looking at me on that day, has made me able to work hard in my activites...
Till now I've been so busy I realise I haven't had the time to look back.
Theres so many people I am thankful too and sorry too I don't know how to express this heart.. I trust you all know even if I dont say it..

that I'm so so thankful...

All of you, you who fill up the lacking things about me. you'll keep being together with me in the future too right?

All of you who make the so many lacking things
into a so very happy person...

I sincerely love you...

2005.
Hyesung...



AWW.... so ke ai

What a bad day today to start with. What happened? Well... I shall not say it here but it just totally spoil my mood of today. TOTALLY SUCKS. WTF Argh... And my Sungie scandal...ARGH... Never mind its all in the past...

Would like to thank my Dear for writing such nice & interesting story of me in her blog. Thanks for her effort. Its really and would like to Thank Claud for her effort to find the Shinhwa coke can and now got to bother her to find Sungie's cd for me. Thank you =)
This is the first time I look for a particular cd find like xiao, go alot of places and all don't sell, wanted to buy online but so damn troublesome, first time anticipate a cd like crazy and that type of feeling is so unbearable.

Recently alot of mixed feelings again. My army application...make me wait like xiao then from very excited till now lost confidence. Gosh... hopefully they will reply me within this week, I can't take it already. "Faster get back to me" (screaming inside my brain)
My magazine... Love Letter sitcom... Sungie album... My name is Kim Sam Soon & Love in Harvard vcd... Sena engagement party & ROM... Aww... looking forward to so many things xia... Can't wait for all this to happen...
Today's mood:

HYESUNG

The "Crab Dance" so cute....^0^

Someone made my day today... received a SHINHWA coke can, got my 2 hubby face on it...wahaha... came all the way from Korea oh... keke. THANKS DEAR. then just now watch entertainment news saw Shinhwa news, AH... so ke ai oh...hehee...


This is the can...Nice?

Feeling so uneasy this few days... wondering whether my army thing will go well not.. haiz.. feeling no confidence man... so xian.. no new shows recently... life so damn boring.. sick some more... having flu & sore throat.. i hate flu...
Sales so bad these few days... AH... my stupid magazine also haven't reach yet...What the F*@k man..
ARGH.... LIFE SUCKS....haven't eat my flu med now already feel so sleepy liao...


AH... i like this new image... he look so nice with glasses on... ^___^

YO

Guess what... early morning today, the Army called me up then say i got selected liao.. but must pass the medical check up first, so stupid right? still got to pass the check up, macham i going in to become female officer need to be so healthy. anyway Xuan say the check up very easy. need to take blood test( wah piang... i really every month take blood test man, coz of my Thyroid), urine test, check eye sight n dental check up. Wah..wait for the test result to be out will be another one to two week, AH.. hopefully everything settle faster ba... quite mix feeling leh.. feel like getting out of this company faster but also at the same time so sad to leave here. Haiz... I hope i'm doing the right thing lor... staying at this company i won't be seeing myself very far right? and so sick of burning my weekend & public holiday. abit scare of going to new environment leh..AAHH... got to start from scratch and getting to know new colleagues and new environment. Looking forward and scare, like what the interviewer told me, i need to handle stress coz inside Army got all those officers and the tone they use might be harsh so i need to get use to it. Well... really hope all things goes well.
Well anything i will update here again... Night my DEARS ^0^

so stress today... today Land off, Eric last min say he took urgent leave not coming. lucky today sales still not bad if not... Ah... tak boleh tahan man... hopefully the Army faster reply me then i can get out of here, really feeling very stress up. Luckily Yang today called me up and talk with me if not i sure go crazy...
Recently bought a new bag and i like it very much...hehe..and so cheap 12 bucks only, Xuan bought a same one too but different colour.
Oh yah... good news to share, I have stop my Thyroid med liao, the doc say its improving so stop it but still have to moniter lor, still got to go back take blood test, so hopefully its fully cure.
Aiyo... sore throat again... dread it...
Night my angels. *______*

From Land...

Sotong gal....


" Tml is another day. Let's put the sorrows away & let
the music celebrate. Our frdship will never fade. Girl....
when everything in life is going down, it is always great
to have a frd around. A frd will help u thru even if u feel
like there's nothing u can do. Frds will give u advice & love
u. They'll love & admire every little thing that u do.... "


- Jusme -

31-07-2005

31st July 2005

Today is the last day Yang working @ PP. so sad of her leaving coz we are so damn close and can click so well. Amazingly I didn't cry...dunno y. but i know i hold back my tears few times today. Maybe if she's leaving this company then i guess i will sure cry lor.. but now only got transfered so its still not that bad, or maybe other things on my mind too, alot of things bottled inside my heart and I don't know how to let go nor to talk to who, coz some feelings inside my heart i can't even explain...
I'm feeling very sleepy today...gosh.. my nightmare going to start liao.. now going to be 2nd in charge makes me feel very stressed up leh... like i still not prepared yet then they just throw this respondsibility to me, though really not that tough but i can't be what i used to be like so care free leh... haiz.. very tiring..
Sat morning Army recruitment fianlly called me up, say got position now so i say i'm interested so now waiting for them to call me up again for the interview timing, hope all goes well.
I'm really tired now. Night my friend.

My 2 LOVES

Hm...kind of get used to his new hair liao.






So.. COOL..

L O V E

Love is so very special
Yet can make you feel so lost
It can arrive just like the springtime
And melt away like morning frost

You must find ways to nurture
Always grow your love with care
Never ever take for granted
The love that you both share

Mistakes are bound to happen
You may hurt each other's heart
Yet don't give up to easily
It will tear your love apart

Love resembles a bright flame
That lights a dark starry night
Never ever let this flame burn down
Rekindle with all your might

Take a moment every day
Look deep into each other's eyes
Never hesitate to show affection
Small gestures will keep a love alive

Talk openly about your feelings
Take time to show that you care
Treasure each and every moment
Because to find true love is rare

A bell is not a bell
until someone rings it,
a song is not a song
until someone sings it.

Love wasn't put
in the heart to stay,
for love isn't love
'til you give it away.


Love is something you can't describe
like the look of a rose,
the smell of the rain,
or the feeling of forever.


The best things in life can never be kept;
They must be given away.
A Smile, a Kiss, and Love


Love is when you look into someone's eyes
and see their heart.

We are so near yet so far...
Thanks for always " being there "

Uncle + Nephews + Niece


The Ng family.


Beauty 4~~ hehe....


Sungie ^____^

YEAH ^______^

YEAH... FINALLY I BOUGHT ERIC'S SHOW SUPER ROOKIE LE... so damn happy...hehe..

A smile is the sun that drives away
the winter from your face.

So restless today. Not enough sleep yesterday, managed to close my eyes but my mind is not resting at all, must be thinking of something but what exactly is it on my mind leh??? Izit something going to happen?? hopefully not anything bad huh. Work full shift today so damn sleepy.
Yeah.. looking forward to Sat, going to meet Xuan & Hua, yeah...my new pyjamas...hehe..oh..and the korean drama April Kiss, seems nice huh...
Damn it..when is my E R I C show going to be out? waited so long liao =( Dread it... Super Rookie....where are you...


Dear Land

Whatever your decision is, you know I will always be behind you supporting, though sad to see you leave but at the same time happy for you that you are pursuing your dream. Like what I said, not many people have found their dreams nor able to chase after their dreams, I'm glad you have found yours and be able to have a chance to dream, so you go gal. You will always have my support. I really wish you could be happy oh, like you & I always said, Life is short, be happy. Love you gal. ^_____^

From Yang~

For being there when I need you and standing beside me...
For listening without judging, and knowing without asking...
For keeping even the tinest secrets safe...
For making me laugh, encouraging my dreams, and loving me as I am...
and most of all,
for being you...
I Thank You,
my wonderful
supportive friend!!!

Billy, Micky, Garrick & Me!!!