Luckily for my Aunt Pauline, if not I would have made a stupid decision, Thanks, I just love my family~~~ hear my problems & giving me advices

~~~~~~AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~
Haha... so happy... finally i'm alive again... hehe
Sompi & ShinHwa ChangJo is back in my life....Yuppie... haha... Sompi is finally back coz previously they don't allow new user to sign up using free email and today i tried, i finally can register liao...hehehe...and SHCJ close down few mths agao, and now it's back and I'm so happy...
Actually these few wks i'm feeling very moody, not like my usual self and i don't know what's happening to me, I just wish my life is much more interesting and i hate my usual self now, don't ask me why. I wish to find a job that really suits me, can someone enlighten me? It's just so hard to find a dream job man, probably bcoz I also don't know what I want to work as, sometimes I just feel I suit sales line, but so xian thing is so many of my friends is in office line, if I'm in the sales line would be so diff to meet up, haiz.... I'm glad Bi found a job, I also wana find a new job but I just seem so lazy man...

Uncle Ben

Happy Birthday!!!

Hye Sung



Eric

Aren't they kawaii??? ^0^

went to watch Fast & Furious - Tokyo Drift liao, wow...nice and Tsumabuki Satoshi made a cameo appearance, even though its only like few seconds but WOW...he is so dashing inside..hehehe. watched Just my Luck yest, quite ok, maybe i pinned too high hopes on the movie so turn out just fine nia...
Just received a post card from my Uncle who is in Germany at the moment, yap talking about Germany, your must have thought of one thing - WORLD CUP, but na... he is not there to watch WC but to meet friends.
Oh yah... yest so happy bought 1 thing, my SHINHWA Pictorial & DVD thingy, AH... SO HAPPY... even though don't know what the hell they talking coz it's in Korean & no chinese or english subtitles but their expressions just kills me...haha but Disc 2 got defects so got to go and change it and my new hp went to see doc yest, stupid phone has been giving me lots of problem, haiz...hopefully it will recover real soon, starting to miss my hp..
Stupid Flu is killing me...AH...SHITS...

Asian Aerospace - 23 Feb 2006 Thur

This is the last yr AA will be in Sinagpore and I'm lucky I'm able to attend it and manage to catch the performance in the morning, The Airbus is damn beautiful & damn BIG lor.



An airforce guy took this pic for us & he volunteer to take for us... he was like "yr wana take a pic" =)



I like this pic but why is my face so dark?? hehe

Finally after almost half a year I can FINALLY upload my BKK photos...thanks to Xuan

5th Jan 2006 Thur



On the way to the Boarding Gate...



Our Flight - Valuair 3K515 Departure 1245hr





Heading to my Destination...BKK ^0^



Our room - Baiyoke Sky Hotel Lvl 45
the room is damn spacious, simply loving it... I miss this hotel... and the cute guy at the lobby...hehe..the way he smile look like korean star Kim Jae Won (^0^)



Our bed



I love the toilet too...its very SPACIOUS...







The walk in wardrobe



Just beside the walk in wardrobe, see they have weighting machine too...and i can see my weight increasing everyday, I think i put on 3kg there haha...



Me in my "pyjamas"



Breakfast at Lvl 77



Seems Delicious? Nah..not really, the dish is all too cold.



Breakfast is really the same everyday...



Inside Tuk-Tuk (scary, took 2 times, and once was at night & the driver drove through dark alley, so scary xia...)



Dunkin Donut - so damn cheap, couldn't really remember the price but since its so damn cheap, we bought 9 at 1 go...and we couldn't finish it...LOL



Are you craving for A&W? Ah... I miss the ice-cream waffles



Dinner bought at road stall, Yummy... =) the pop corn is damn nice man... nicer than SG cinema selling wan lor, sweet & saltish, i bought back 1 packet & gave some to Minnie & Mic try, they also say nice, missing it...



The little puppy is so damn cute, feel like bringing back home @ CTC, some pets are kept in really small cages, very pathetic, but i didn't get to see alot of pets coz Xuan don't like fluffy pets, why don't she like them? they are so damn kawaii ne...





My Loots













The light blue luggage, red bag & the yellow plastic bag is my stuffs, the other 2 is Xuan wan...

Looking back at the photos make me miss the 5 days 4 nights at BKK... I wana go back again...

Caught She's the Man yest with Bud, it's damn hilarious, met up with Lin after our wrk which is already at 9+pm, had long john silver first before heading to cine bought our tics and it's already ard 11pm & dash to Wisma for late night shopping...wah piang so many people xia... anyway just bought masks frm face shop...hehe...we watch 11.45pm show, so faster rush back to cine & luckily the show haven start yet...
My schedule next weeks sucks... and i only had 1 off day coz got to go for new training...sucks... and bcoz of the world cup thingy, both our wkends will be burnt xia...xianz...
Micky has started his blogging... hehe

Wah... I 1 mth never blog liao leh... gosh... life sucks recently man... my life now don't have anything to look forward to man... oh yah... only 1 thing and that is SHINHWA coming to Singapore this year... i wana see my HS... & Eric & the other hotties... hehe... ah... i wana get a new job, if i still stay in this job, duno will slack till how long xia... & this job really makes me no mood to work xia...
this is the list of movies i watch recently:
X-Men (Not bad)
Poisedon (I like it, short & sweet)
Voice
When a stanger calls (waste my $, not even woreth to go watch on wkday)
Take the Lead (Nice... felt like dancing after watching)
The hills have eyes (Bloody....)
Daisy (The killer to kill for....AW... ^0^)
Aqua Marine
Tristan & Islode
Eight Below (so touching)
Season of Love
Micky had knee operation today.. will be visiting him tmr, hope he gets well soon...
Oh yah, few wks ago, went JB with Xuan & Hua, we had a fun day at JB, went crazy shopping, spend every last cent of Ringgit, nearly had problems getting back, haha... so fun man...
Bud finally update her blog liao..hehe...finally after so long~~~

How I celebrated my birthday? hm... nothing much though, met up with Lin, Xuan & Ah Hua and did abit shopping in the noon & caught Daisy at Cineleisure then went Heeren for dinner after that Ah Hua went back home first then we met Lin's friend and went to a pub to chill out, Lin surprise me with a cake... so sweet of her, Thanks Bud...even though it's only a slice but its the though that counts....(^0^)
And yes... before I forgot... I would like to Thanks all those who sent me bithday smses... thanks for remembering my birthday, it's always so sweet to have friends remembering my bithday. But I'm so sad that my Mum failed to call me up & wish me, she say she was working that day & forgot about it...



@ Billy Bombers


Happy Birthday to me

I'm sick today, terrible sore throat, wake up & my throat hurts, so irritating... and the stupid block nose makes me nearly can't sleep, oh gosh i hate it when my throat hurts... anyway the med given by the doc quite good, my throat now doesn't hurt that much liao, the cough & flu med makes me sleep like pig, slept from 1pm to 6pm...
tmr's my BIRTHDAY.... =) well, haven't really plan where to go but will be meeting my galfriends... wana go where? wana do what? I have really no idea man... feel like go movies again coz really can't think of going anywhere, a movie & dinner maybe will be all, let's see how though...
well... your should have saw the Shinhwa pic i posted below? how? Yandao? hehe... that's the style for the new album coming out in may... the look drop dead gorgeous, aren't they?? (^0^) see how HS & Eric's smile...(melting) hehe...

yest went to catch Eight Below...nice... cute, funny & touching, nearly cried at the last part, the husky is so beatiful and their determination to survive & wait for their owner to come back is so touching... next show i wana watch Take the Lead... seems nice too =) i have been continuously 3 weeks tue went to watch movie, 1st week watched Ice Age 2, 2nd wk watch Tristan & Isolde & yest Eight Below. hehe, all watch at Bishan... anyway watch wkday is so much cheaper lor... mon received my first birthday message for this year, very early right coz Janice will be in Japan on my birthday so she send me an early greeting... i also wana spend my birthday @ oversea at least once in my lifetime... i wana change my hp... stupid hp duno izit the keypad got problem or wat.. msg halfway then appear to main screen, and it happens almost everytime when i press the space button... so angry... i reply 1 msg got to at least type 4 to 5 times, so juz now i replied Lin's msg w/o typing the space bar "anditendsuplikethis". haha...she say i'm testing her eyesight... but no choice lor...
i've finally change my skin...(^0^) nice?? finally after so long.... hahaha...

My Darling SHINHWA

YOYO... how is everyone getting on? me? since i start this new job becoming more & more tired... 12 hrs work is not that fun though, come back from work feel very sleepy liao... off day also wana sleep at home xia...
anyway, my uncle came back frm Shanghai & got me my dvd...hehe so happy... ah hua juz came back frm holiday in HK & Janice is going Japan... AH...so angry...i wana go holiday too...but no $$ xia... haiz... when is Shinhwa new album coming out huh? idiot..they kept delaying the album...hm... izit bcoz of Eric oppa's injury? hopefully their album come out soon and come SG for their promotions... got news say they coming to Asia for concert, SG is one of the stop too...hopefully they will come... in another 1 wk i'm turning 24 liao...oh gosh...really feel so old liao leh but thinking still seems childish leh...haha... how huh? haiz... today's entry very random...well...i juz wrote whatever pop out on my mind lor...=)
my birthday wish for this year... i wana go HOLIDAY!!!!!

Finally yest is my last day of work... 5 mths in this company make me grow alot... seen alot of diff type of people...these few days "liang ma lu" lor...sat starting a new job...abit scare though... tmr going JB with Xuan...hehe...wana pig myself out... miss Malaysia's KFC whipped potato... I'm coming tmr...hehe... make sure i order the large one.. ^0^ recently ask my uncle get me korean drama in Shanghai coz there cheaper mah... ask him to get me 3 show, Full House, Wedding & Mafia girlfriend, actually i got the Full house vcd liao, but the vcd abit spoilt so might as well get DVD to keep instead, since i like that show...hehe..actually when i ask my uncle to get the other show Wedding, Singapore haven sell yet, but i saw it in Toa Payoh recently... hm...so tempted to watch, hopefully he comes back faster next mth...
AH.... i MISS HS.... not much news about him recently...so sad...hm...tmr go JB wana check out got S album not...hehe...
recently really no mood to blog...guess my life is pretty much boring though... haiz... xian.. i miss my days in NKPP... happiest moments...though pay & some people sucks but that was also my happiest moments... but alot of people have left, but glad that we still keep in contact though... i wana go holiday... if best can migrate will be better...haha...
til my next post...

Well...someone has been complaining i haven been updating my blog...well since i started working here, alot of work things cant be updated here & i admit i'm being lazy though..hehe.. anyway my new update would be my last day of work is on 27 mar, made a really long decision before tendering and i guess is the best way though... will be starting new job on 1st Apr, friends...wish me all the best... & Spidey, Thanks for your help...^0^
have yr sen the video clip below? thats my new Kdrama obession Goong aka Princess Hours, story abt 2 Prince & a normal gal, the gal married to 1 of the Prince by the agreement made freom their grandparents, its like comedy & romance... which i simply adore this type of drama...hehe..like full house... their story background involves palace & their clothes & bears look amazing...see this pic



alot of bears images will appear in this drama, and the bear wears exactly the same clothings & the same pose as the actors/actresses...its just so cute... hopefully this show will be here soon...guess theres still few episode in korea so i'll just have to wait...
Oh yah... few wks ago just attend Sena & Jon's wedding, 2 wedding crash in the same day... Congrats to both sides... a pity i didn't stay long for Sena's wedding coz i gotta rush to Jon's Wedding, so rush till i didn't get to eat much... then come home & buy noodles from coffee shop...haiz...
thats all for today...take care...tata

love story

THE STORY...

i always knew i was going to marry her.

the proposal actually goes way back to more than 5 years ago. there was a period of time when i thought i had lost her. and i had gone back home to california, left with only my thoughts and perceived misery. there's this spot i always go to, just to be alone, do my QTs, or just to think. it's this barren cliff near my house that overlooks all of the san fernando valley. usually it's riddled with stones, dirt, and an occasional piece of trash (which i usually try to clear out.) but on this day, the day i thought i lost her, there was something else on the cliff. a single flower. this little yellow flower sprouting in the middle of what's basically a mound of dirt. it was a sign of hope, also a remembrance, that i lost her. so i just grabbed it...plucked it from the ground that it was born in, and took it home. i pressed the flower in an old dictionary and stashed it away. it was at that point i accepted that i may never be with her....and i decided to move on.

fast forward 3 years, both of us had our own paths. granted we were in the same school but our friendship was merely a hello and goodbye with underlying awkwardness from the past. we dated other people and grew during that time as well. but in the end, we were single...two pieces of the puzzle, not knowing that we fit.

the empire state building, a malaysian restaurant, a movie, and some hershey's kisses paved the way. and then it was January 22nd, 2001. the timing was perfect...we started to date. and on that day, i took out what was once lost...the single flower that was pressed in my red dictionary. i placed it in a wooden frame and gave it to her as a symbol that i got her back. that i didn't lose her afterall, that instead, i had her all along.

i always knew i was going to marry her.

so we dated and dated. and every single minute was amazing. from the trials and tribulation to the joys and laughters...every moment was important. at a certain point we were getting anxious. was marriage in the horizon? when can we start spending the rest of our lives together? and then me being a guy, i worried about the financial stability, the approval of parents, the commitment.

i have to admit, there were times when things were rocky, there were times we even doubted that God knew what he was doing. but all we knew is that we wanted to be with each other.

before we knew it, it was January 21, 2006. the day before what is to be our 5 year anniversary. i had spent 2 weeks working on a scrapbook looking back at 5 years of our relationship. now, you gotta understand, it's been years since i did anything arts and craftyish so me with a gluestick and scissors ain't a pretty sight. but i finally finished it the night before...it had dozens of movie tickets i had saved over the 5 years. every ticket to musicals we've been to. notes we passed to each other, pictures of us on various trips we took together, two pages dedicated to our dogs who are a big part of our lives. and as i sat there showing her the scrapbook i asked her to add little things in them.

i always knew i was going to marry her.

she pulled out old notes, drawings that i drew for her long ago. she helped glue in a musical ticket. we laughed at all the stuff we did. read some of the silly notes we passed to each other in class. and kept contributing to the scrapbook..until the last page.

the last page were two empty pages with just grass on it. "what should we put in here?" i asked. she looked around her room and pondered. then she thought of the framed flower. she resisted at first because she was afraid that the flower would break, but she eventually got up...grabbed the frame and sat down on her bed. she began to peel away the pegs that kept the back of the frame closed.

and as she opened it, she noticed a message written in ink on the inside of the frame.

"if you're reading this then we've made it this far...and i know we would. without much further ado, will you marry me? - please say yes!"

and underneath that, a date was inscribed....January 22nd, 2001.

i always knew i was going to marry her.

and she said yes.


on the very last page of the scrap book it reads:

"To God, who made all things possible."

Touching...isn't it? so sweet...hope i can meet a guy like this...

ah...i'm sick again... sore throat again and flu...had blocked nose when i sleep these few days, even "ying qiao" cannot cure so no choice got to see doc, after taking the medicine abt 1 hr later, knockdown.... had a very good sleep...but felt very tired & abit giddy coz the drowsiness haven really get out of my body... actaully i'm suppose to be having course these few days, and gosh...the course makes me feel like i don't have childhood leh....why? coz i now realize i don't know how to fold paper aeroplane....haha... life's pretty boring... ah...nothing to look forward recently, oh yah...got 1... on 4 mar, got to attend 2 wedding, gosh... 1 is Jon wedding another 1 is Sena darling wedding, one at expo another one at little india... wana cry leh, got to rush 2 side...haiz... why they got to choose same date huh? make me so busy leh... haha...anyway is sppose to be a happy occasion lah... CONGRATS.... yest was V day, how dud yr spend the day? me? back home after course lor... no dates...haiz... wana get home straight after course, dun wana see couples outside...pathetic me...
Ah... so sick & tired of life... everyday same routine, same life, got to see same people... so getting sick of it... Ah hua finally get to resign...happy for her, finally get out of hell =) Land also yest last day liao =) finally get out of hell too huh...haha... so getting ready to backpack liao lor... bring me along...pls... =)
finally chinese new yr have come to an end huh? but i receive 2 ang baos frm my realtive today, coz i never went to my dad's side this yr so they pass the ang bao to my dad and then pass to me...haha... so happy at least still got $ anyway this yr new yr was quite boring but i like the feeling when my family is beside me, like nothing else matters... on the new yr eve, went to my aunt house for reunion dinner, steamboat...YUMMY.... then after that went for movies, 1st day of new yr went to my grandma house, eat & watch dvd after that movie at night again... my uncle manage to come back last min on the night of eve, i told him he should have come back earlier so we can have delicious steamboat..haha, anyway that was last min he could get a tic lor... 2nd day of new yr, went to meet Lin, Jenny, Ting & Gek in the late afternoon, had a walk an ang bao river there but too crowded & squeezy so we left after awhile then movie again...haha..every yr new yr always movie marathon coz nothing else to do mah...right? 3rd day at home sleep...boring right? that's my life recently lor... so xian... i just wish my life would be abit more colourful & interesting.
til the next post... duno when lah... take care then...^0^

I'M SO SAD =.(

I can't have my daily dosage of Shinhwa news anymore.... moderators in the forum had dispute and they close the forum....so sad, now i can't even see the private message they pm me...ARGH... should have check it out during the weekend...stupid of me... so sad that they close it down, their news, pic & videos all latest... AH...feel like crying...hopefully they reopen it again.......

31/12/2005

Today is the last day of 2005.
Still left ard 4 hr and 30 mins to the new start of 2006.
Well... do your sometimes start to think how was my 2005 like? Every year on the last day I would always think how was my life like for these whole year. Did alot of things happened this year? Do your think like that too? Or was it just me? Anyway this year had alot of ups & downs, knew my Thyroid illness in Apr,had a short trip to Genting in May & change jobs in Oct, well these 3 events is the only thing i can remember, of coz there are still alot of things happening, but my poor memory starts to work again...^_^)
Why am I here writing blog today where I should go and party myself to the dawn? Well...thats bcoz I really hate to go crowd with others, even last week, Christmas countdown, I juz spend the time with my cousins go movie and chit chat at kopitiam and of coz avoiding city area...Jenny ask me out for coffee with Lin but I reject, coz I was not feeling well, I spend my afternoon napping, gosh... I slept from 1pm to 6pm, frankly speaking I never slept so long for my nap, mostly give me 3 hrs for nap is very standard but I don't know why this time round I slept for so long and I didn't even take medicine, guess I'm really too tired...
New Year Resolution?
No I never had new year resolutions coz I never stick to that, I just live by each day. Able to sleep, eat, smile, laugh & be in love will be enough for me. Hmm..add 1 more will be good health, hopefully 2006 I can stop my medicine for Thyroid. Bless me!!!
For my Dear Friends~~~
HAPPY NEW YEAR & WISHING EACH OF YOU BE HAPPY & HEALTHY ALWAYS. LOVE U!!!

13/12/05

hm... very long never update my blog liao hor... haiz...very lazy and no mood to write also...anyway every weekday is the same, work come home watch tv/vcd or online. recently have been going out every sat, kind of tired... spend alot of time with my family too coz my uncle came back for almost a month before flying back this fri, so we might meet the last time round with him tmr and watch King Kong before he fly back to Shanghai, guess he won't be back for Chinese New Year next mth.
I wana complain... have been waiting for the Korean mag to arrive in Sg, waiting for almost 2 mth liao leh... wat happen??? Do something man... I wana get SHINHWA.... argh...juz hate the pain of waiting. buck up pls... oh yah...recently Sungie got admitted to hospital[heart pain] ah... my poor baby... take good care dun tired yrself out...
hm... i actually felt like changing jobs leh... or feel like changing to other department, have been feeling very lonely at work... dun even have a close friend and up till now almost working for 2 mths, nobody have my hp no except my Chief and vice versa, i dun know why i really dun have much things to talk to them, so everyday i hope & pray that time pass by faster so i can get out of the office faster. well... my aunt told me is bcoz i'm still new over there mah, but its almost 2 mths man... and alot of things i really very blur lor... haiz... kind of feel like there doesn't suit me leh... i don't know lah... i'm quite stress up working there...well...i give myself another few more months...bless me. Chief coming back tmr, sure nag alot...hahaha...sure busy tmr... haiz... all right, until my next entry.... Oyasuminasai... sweet dreamz...

happy birthday my love

My : Sungie

~~~Happy Birthday to you~~~

Yesterday my family day came out ok, went to pray my grandpa in the afternoon and catch Harry Porter after that, the movie was great, and the guy who died is so gorgeous, haha...and yeah..i saw E R I C samsung commercial again.. ^0^ happy... after that went amk for steamboat and ktv afterwards... enjoyed ourself at the ktv, the room was big coz we got 15 people...we sang, danced and laughed so happily, kind of forgot the unhappiness earlier...i just love family gathering even though it is a torture to organize it.

ARGH...today mood just sucks...everything just seem not right +_+ esp my family day tmr is driving me crazy, everyone kept asking me meet what time, meet where, go where. WTF, yr never suggest go where then kept asking me how... ask your wana go where for dinner also kept saying anything... ARGH... so damn piss off and practically today talk to my family in a very bad tone... what i can say is i really very fed up lor... in the end finally managed to come out with a time to meet at my aunt house then after that think of where to go for dinner... already tired with my work still got to make me do this stuff... so tired now...anyway mon went to attend my ex colleague's ROM..hm.. I was thinking sometimes things really is fated lor... duno how to say lah, anyway Congrats...very tired now... juz now went for dinner with xuan... talk to her abt my work & my family day tmr... really very tiring today... ZZzzz....night sweetie

Ah... I am really very lazy to blog these few days. even though i spent alot of time at home recently... just pure lazy. haha. anyway nothing much in particular happening, went to Parkway to return my uniform today, went makan my favourite char kway teow with Land and did some shopping...hehe.. i'm really broke man... oh yah fri i finally bought a korean drama which i waited for it to arrive in Sg for few months liao and i was so damn happy and i finish the show on sat noght..haha.. quite ok but not as nice as i expected maybe bcoz i have read each single episode online already so i roughly knew what they going to show next so the excitement is not there already. hm.. but the both guys inside the show is damn gorgeous...^0^
Feee... i like the testi u wrote for me...hehe.. thanks... take good care my dear...
ok got to go meet my prince charming in my dreamland. oyasumi...

written by Feee in my friendster...

+My Dearest Senior+

She's a kind and considerate person.Always thought me to be patient and not rush things. I look for her when I had something on mind,and in return,she gave me advices.
She's the kind of person,you would want to bring home with you. U know,like a genie in a bottle. U rub2,and he/she comes out. Yah.Like that.(haha)
I would go anywhere in a jiffy just to see her.Even if it takes flying a jetplane. U can always talk crappy things,cos it made her laugh sometimes. Ya still remember patrick? Hoho.She's never been serious,and yah,the only thing she ever complained about was the air con thingy at home. Haha. And if the korea vcd not yet released. Haha.
But Im glad I wasted a year of schooling just to work,cos if not,I wouldn't have met great people like her. She changed my life for the better,and I'll always remember the advices you gave me.

And yah,through her,I am definetely influenced by the Korean craze.
But ahh..not Eric or HS.Hee..

Take care! Muaaax.=)))

my dears

My Dears...
If you want to know how much I miss you, go count the raindrops when it rain... the ones u catch will mean how much you miss me...
but the ones you missed out, will mean how much I miss you...

Yesterday went to watch 40 yr old virgin with Xuan, nice show, it was hilarious and kind of sweet. high reco... =) wake up today damn early coz got to prepare a war in the morning, won't go on details... so wake up around 8am, ah... now kind of get used waking up early i guess... so before war, got up and do my laundry first coz later going to meet my mum out jalan jalan... OH YEAH... before i forgot... u know what yesterday while i was in the cinema at PS, before the show start always got alot of commercial right? guess what commercial i saw??? its E R I C samsung commercial... OH GOSH... I was like couldn't believe my eyes that his commercial was shown over in SG, though quite short but i was so damn happy xia... hehe... just make my day...when can i see HS one??? haha.. well possibility is 0 i guess coz the commercial he endorse isn't available in SG +_+ oh yah... yesterday we watch the show hor, we were sitting on the first row leh... wah piang so sellable... anyway we still catch the show lor coz theres no other show i want to watch liao... lucky it turn out nice if not my neck is the one that suffer the most...haha. today got shopping mood leh coz took my pay liao..hehe... hopefully can buy some clothes... really nothing to wear like that leh and wearing heels to work is really a torture coz i always got to climb slope.... so painful...
Yesterday went Orchard then go find my darling, so miss everyone... met Ria also, she is leaving soon, glad for her that she had found a better job. My poor Land... poor little gal... take good care ok.. don't tire yourself out...

Land & Fee

Dear Jus|and

"Life is too short to be anything but happy. Love deeply, forgive quickly, take chances, give everything with no regrets. Forget the past with the exception of what you have learned and remember -- everything happens for a reason."

Dear Fee

"For a long time is seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life.
But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first,
some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid.
At last it dawned on me that these obstacle were my life.
This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness.
Happiness is the way.
So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
Dance as though no one is watching you.
Love as though you have never been hurt before.
Sing as though no one can hear you.
Live as though heaven is on earth."

summary

Hmm...what should i write today? maybe a summary of what happen this week.
Monday, first day of work, so scared, worried and lonely. colleagues is quite nice but i felt so left out coz don't even know what they talking about or who they talking about so I just do my work. Like that continuously for 5 days, I'm still so quiet coz I don't have same topic to talk to them except for work stuffs, the only person I can talk more is with my Chief Clerk, she is a mum of 2 kids, she got the same interest as me that is Korean drama, haha. coz i can't log in my pc to access to the program so practically morning i will be on her desk to do my work so sometimes we will be talking about Kdrama, but the funny thing is our taste of show is very different lor, alot of show I find not nice she say nice then I say nice she say not nice, funny right? but we still have the same liking on certain show lah, haha. sometimes I felt lonely inside the office leh, coz is like I really don't know what to say to them except for work stuffs lor, even my colleagues say I'm very quiet and sometimes I didn't even go lunch together with them, I just buy back to eat in the office, coz sometimes I go makan with them I also very quiet so I rather just buy back and eat in the office. so xian right? I miss my darlings ex-colleagues.... miss everything about them, miss the craps, FOS etc... I always reach home around 6.30pm and when I reach home I felt so lonely leh, coz is like I don't know what I should do, coz sometimes tv show not nice then when i log on to the pc nobody is online so early, then now I got to sleep early because I got to wake up at 6am . Sat & Sun also seems very boring, no $ to go out and so boring to stay at home. luckily yest I met up with my mum and aunt pauline for dinner at ang mo kio central and they accompany me do some shopping, bought a pair of shoe, 1 top and 1 pant. If I never meet them up, I guess I will bored to death, I'm so used to spending my weekends at work and now when I got the free time, I felt so damn xian xia... and I just wanted to meet someone up regardless of family or friends. Well maybe jus|and is right, I should go get a bf right? but what the heck, think so easy meh, macham they will fall from sky like that. LOL. back to work tomorrow, so feel like crying...

I'M SO

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Sam & Sena ( My Dear is so pretty...)


Sena & me in JB Skudai


Mr & Mrs Saravanan