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Sungie's letter

May 7th 2005... I remember the day I stood in front of the fans for the first time with the solo album..
That day that I was so nervous and shaking I dont even know how it went by
but I can remember all your faces that went through it together with me..
Its already been 3 months since I've begun solo activities.
At first it was so hard because of the fear of being alone and the pressure.... but remembering all your pretty faces, your smiles looking at me on that day, has made me able to work hard in my activites...
Till now I've been so busy I realise I haven't had the time to look back.
Theres so many people I am thankful too and sorry too I don't know how to express this heart.. I trust you all know even if I dont say it..

that I'm so so thankful...

All of you, you who fill up the lacking things about me. you'll keep being together with me in the future too right?

All of you who make the so many lacking things
into a so very happy person...

I sincerely love you...

2005.
Hyesung...



AWW.... so ke ai

What a bad day today to start with. What happened? Well... I shall not say it here but it just totally spoil my mood of today. TOTALLY SUCKS. WTF Argh... And my Sungie scandal...ARGH... Never mind its all in the past...

Would like to thank my Dear for writing such nice & interesting story of me in her blog. Thanks for her effort. Its really and would like to Thank Claud for her effort to find the Shinhwa coke can and now got to bother her to find Sungie's cd for me. Thank you =)
This is the first time I look for a particular cd find like xiao, go alot of places and all don't sell, wanted to buy online but so damn troublesome, first time anticipate a cd like crazy and that type of feeling is so unbearable.

Recently alot of mixed feelings again. My army application...make me wait like xiao then from very excited till now lost confidence. Gosh... hopefully they will reply me within this week, I can't take it already. "Faster get back to me" (screaming inside my brain)
My magazine... Love Letter sitcom... Sungie album... My name is Kim Sam Soon & Love in Harvard vcd... Sena engagement party & ROM... Aww... looking forward to so many things xia... Can't wait for all this to happen...
Today's mood:

HYESUNG

The "Crab Dance" so cute....^0^

Someone made my day today... received a SHINHWA coke can, got my 2 hubby face on it...wahaha... came all the way from Korea oh... keke. THANKS DEAR. then just now watch entertainment news saw Shinhwa news, AH... so ke ai oh...hehee...


This is the can...Nice?

Feeling so uneasy this few days... wondering whether my army thing will go well not.. haiz.. feeling no confidence man... so xian.. no new shows recently... life so damn boring.. sick some more... having flu & sore throat.. i hate flu...
Sales so bad these few days... AH... my stupid magazine also haven't reach yet...What the F*@k man..
ARGH.... LIFE SUCKS....haven't eat my flu med now already feel so sleepy liao...


AH... i like this new image... he look so nice with glasses on... ^___^

YO

Guess what... early morning today, the Army called me up then say i got selected liao.. but must pass the medical check up first, so stupid right? still got to pass the check up, macham i going in to become female officer need to be so healthy. anyway Xuan say the check up very easy. need to take blood test( wah piang... i really every month take blood test man, coz of my Thyroid), urine test, check eye sight n dental check up. Wah..wait for the test result to be out will be another one to two week, AH.. hopefully everything settle faster ba... quite mix feeling leh.. feel like getting out of this company faster but also at the same time so sad to leave here. Haiz... I hope i'm doing the right thing lor... staying at this company i won't be seeing myself very far right? and so sick of burning my weekend & public holiday. abit scare of going to new environment leh..AAHH... got to start from scratch and getting to know new colleagues and new environment. Looking forward and scare, like what the interviewer told me, i need to handle stress coz inside Army got all those officers and the tone they use might be harsh so i need to get use to it. Well... really hope all things goes well.
Well anything i will update here again... Night my DEARS ^0^

so stress today... today Land off, Eric last min say he took urgent leave not coming. lucky today sales still not bad if not... Ah... tak boleh tahan man... hopefully the Army faster reply me then i can get out of here, really feeling very stress up. Luckily Yang today called me up and talk with me if not i sure go crazy...
Recently bought a new bag and i like it very much...hehe..and so cheap 12 bucks only, Xuan bought a same one too but different colour.
Oh yah... good news to share, I have stop my Thyroid med liao, the doc say its improving so stop it but still have to moniter lor, still got to go back take blood test, so hopefully its fully cure.
Aiyo... sore throat again... dread it...
Night my angels. *______*

From Land...

Sotong gal....


" Tml is another day. Let's put the sorrows away & let
the music celebrate. Our frdship will never fade. Girl....
when everything in life is going down, it is always great
to have a frd around. A frd will help u thru even if u feel
like there's nothing u can do. Frds will give u advice & love
u. They'll love & admire every little thing that u do.... "


- Jusme -

31-07-2005

31st July 2005

Today is the last day Yang working @ PP. so sad of her leaving coz we are so damn close and can click so well. Amazingly I didn't cry...dunno y. but i know i hold back my tears few times today. Maybe if she's leaving this company then i guess i will sure cry lor.. but now only got transfered so its still not that bad, or maybe other things on my mind too, alot of things bottled inside my heart and I don't know how to let go nor to talk to who, coz some feelings inside my heart i can't even explain...
I'm feeling very sleepy today...gosh.. my nightmare going to start liao.. now going to be 2nd in charge makes me feel very stressed up leh... like i still not prepared yet then they just throw this respondsibility to me, though really not that tough but i can't be what i used to be like so care free leh... haiz.. very tiring..
Sat morning Army recruitment fianlly called me up, say got position now so i say i'm interested so now waiting for them to call me up again for the interview timing, hope all goes well.
I'm really tired now. Night my friend.

My 2 LOVES

Hm...kind of get used to his new hair liao.






So.. COOL..